What Do You Do When the devil Steals Your Joy?

Woke up this morning feeling ok. I decided that this was going to be a good day. The sermon at church Sunday was great and always seems to give me just what my soul needs. Of couse, we had my uncle's funeral that afternoon and it was also beautiful.

Ok..so...to deal with the day, I try to do my best to be my best.

What do you do when the first thing to happen to you is "crap" in your face? Well, if you do what you should, you just smile and realize that you are being tested to see just how much joy you have and what are you going to do with it. Well, how many of us really do that? If we are all honest, not very many. I am one of those.

I didn't get the response to something that I wanted and felt that was rightfully mine and immediately I went into defense mode, hostility mode, I'm pissed mode. I wasn't the only one. There were a few of us today walking that same barbed wire fence and we all fell right through it. The scratches and cuts that I have are so deep right at this moment that I feel sure tomorrow won't be better. I'm still angry and want to go to this person and tell them exactly what I think. Will that make it better? Of couse not.

Ok, does that sound like the attitude most of us will take? You know it! I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I only know that I pray that I will do better tomorrow than I did today.

I have learned and heard that God will not put on us more than He knows we are able to handle. The thing is, He doesn't want 'us' to handle it. He wants us to let Him handle it. He can handle all things.

I know all these things and more, but somehow "I'm not wanting to let it go". Do you know anyone like that? I'm sure you do.

I guess there are times when I wish I had someone close that I could talk to and tell all the things that were bothering me and making me miserable. Oh, wait....I do have someone...Jesus. I know He is hearing me now and reading as I write my feelings.

I know that life is hard. I know that we make it hard. I know that God will be with me no matter what.

I also know that just knowing these things don't make them go away. What I do know is I have to try everyday to do better.