I try not to let it get me down, but it's hard. You wake up in the morning too tired to get up, but you do it anyway. You feel all the aches and pains of an 80 year old, but you keep moving, almost without thought, just actions. You get yourself ready to do what you do, day in and day out. Go to work, come home, take care of animals because your husband is out of town due to work, fix a bite to eat and then go to bed. Only to start the same thing over again.
Right now, my husband is getting ready to go to China for the second time. The first time was only a few weeks ago and was to be for 1 week but ended up being 2 weeks. Now, once again he will be gone for 2 weeks. The first time was really hard. I don't like being home alone. I'm not afraid nor am I helpless. I just don't like it.
I'm trying to do a different program of nutrition to start feeling better health wise and with it will probably come some weight loss. That would really be great. I don't particularly like some of the foods that my nutritionist suggested, but I try. I think maybe it might make a difference in how I see myself.
This is what I find in me everyday...ramblings...so many thoughts I don't know how to put them in any kind of reasonable order. Sometimews I'm not sure if I have much of a memory left.
There are so many things that I want to do with my life that I have no idea what to do first, if there is anyway that I can get out of the box I'm in.
My reason for starting this blog is for others to post their opinions, questions, statements etc.
I will not always write in the "black" mood. I am happy and loving and have lots of wonderful things to say. It's just right now, the mood is not so cheery. But that is ok...for now it's enough....
....more to come....
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